Category Archives: my neuroses

cusp

I’m on the cusp of another change in my life. I still don’t know how exactly the cards will fall, but I know I’m shuffling around the dynamic of stresses vs benefits of my day to day life and I … Continue reading

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depression

depression is a really ridiculous thing. depression is purposefully not doing things that you know have the power to bring you joy. depression is fetishizing the rut that you’re in, and associating your self identity with it. you begin to … Continue reading

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happy kitty space

I just had a most enlightening experience while out taking a walk tonight. There were many cats out around the neighborhood tonight. I had been indulging myself in meowing at them and seeing if any will be interested in coming … Continue reading

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patchwork and frenzied

In a way I am living my 16 year old self’s dream. I remember trying to envision what I wanted out of life as an adult. Along the way I have acquired other ideals and I have other desires that … Continue reading

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unbroken

Right now is a time of frustration. I’m still crawling along, got just enough sustenance to keep me going but comfort continues to be just over the horizon. I’m starting to get the feeling that the act of trying to … Continue reading

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channelled neuroses

Waiting is extremely difficult. I think I’m intrinsically hypocritical and I’m not sure what to do about it. I wonder a lot about the influence of a person’s genetics on their idealogical leanings. I think I might be inverted, idealogically. … Continue reading

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stop the train!

I just discovered that an herb I’d bought a while back was a totally different variant than I had researched, with different properties. It’s called skullcap, there is an american skullcap and a chinese skullcap. I realize now that I … Continue reading

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